Blog post march 1st

So.  I want to get back into these blogs on a regular basis.  These things are not always easy for me, but I am going to start just coming off the cuff and just write what I am thinking.  I am still working on my comic!  I am an artist but also a working man.  I am not one of these people who can dedicate their lives to one thing.  That is a fact.  I am ok with it.  Every artist I ever admired did not have an easy go of it.  So, in all reality this is my work, my soul work.  what I am doing to keep going.  I feel everyone needs a passion project.  Work gets in the way. It's just a sad fact of life.  Bills must be paid and it gets in the way of what we really want to do.  

So this comic that I am working on had to have the name changed.  I was going to call my character Zeke Ellis.  I had to change that because there is character from a video game with that name.  I still wanted it to sound the same, so I changed it to "Zane Elix".   

I have been drawing this thing out on my phone.  I have been doing it panel by panel and writing little things as I go.  I have never made a comic before and am really just doing it the best way I know how with the tools I have.  

I am working on a new business card, and banner for any outdoor events I may do in the future.  

 I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for quite some time now.  It cuts in to everything I do.  It's absolutely painful and that is why I don't get anything done most of the time in my art world.  I keep everything up as far as my site and my Etsy and everything.  I am always planning to get back into the art community.  It is just a matter of getting my depression under control.  

I know a lot of my problems are my own fault.  It isn't like I don't know that.  I have done and said things that cannot be reversed.  I have ruined friendships I probably shouldn't have.  But I have been trying to turn my life around.  For quite some time now actually.

I am sitting at the Nazareth diner right now blogging and I am hoping to get out of my artist block.  I need to write a new list very soon.  My artist to do list I mean.  Ever since I lost my studio it has been tough getting back to where I need to be creatively.  I haven't given up though.  I will always consider myself an artist.  It has always been my thing.  

I am still doing Tai-Chi which I too consider an art.  The thing with me is I am an Arts Enthusiast as much as anything else.  I love it all.  I love writing too which is why I like to blog.  Of course, Blogging is what got me in such a mess.

I am going to continue this in another blog post.

-Mark